Fickle Is His Middle Name

As it turned out, I only had a day to enjoy my partner's decision to drop his plan to work overseas.

Blood is thicker than water indeed. Influenced more by his mother's advice than mine, he regrettably (?) informed me that he will push through with his application after all.

A Best Supporting Performer as I am, I still wished him the best.

Enter left to Front Center, cue On My Own . . .


Life

Relieved, I Gotta Say!

So my fears have been allayed . . . my partner decided not to pursue his plans to work overseas!!!

So now I sing again . . .

YOU'RE HERE . . . THAT'S ALL I NEED TO KNOW . . .


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On My Own . . . soon?

Last night, I played my DVD copy of the 10th Anniversary concert of Les Miserables and found myself teary eyed again from the moving renditions of some of the most memorable songs from the musicale. It's been more than a decade since I fell in love with Les Miz and couldn't help myself singing along to the beautiful songs. Not surprisingly, I assume this kinship with the character of Eponine, brilliantly sung by Lea Salonga.

This time though, a few lines that hit too close to home were . . .

I did not live until today
How can I live when we are parted?
Tomorrow you'll be worlds away
And yet with you my world has started


It pretty much reflects my present anxieties about the possibility that my partner would take an overseas job very soon.

More than my worries on what life is waiting for him abroad, I am concerned on how I will be able to spend my life while he's away (a little too Mariah Carey/Celine Dion song-ish, I know!). Two years is really long and though I know I can wait, who knows how much things can change between now and then?

We've been together for over a year and I feel we've built a strong enough foundation to feel secure that the possible separation would not be much of a hindrance. But I am still afraid . . .

On the other hand, at least I would have another excuse to sing . . .

On my own, pretending he's beside me . . .



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With Us May The Force Be

For someone who's supposed to be all knowing and wise, a good English teacher, Yoda definitely needs!

That is just one of the thoughts I had after watching the final installment of the Star Wars franchise, Episode 3: Revenge of the Sith.

Considering that I saw the first trilogy back in the 80's when they were originally released and I barely paid attention when I saw the 2 prequels, I came in the moviehouse with the vaguest memory of what Star Wars is about. And yet surprisingly, I enjoyed the film. Yes! It is awesome. It is fast paced and occasionaly funny. Definitely the best among the prequels and one of the best of the entire series.

Kudos to Victor for snatching for us (Kiko, AJ and myself) free tickets for the midnight screening. It was also my chance to visit for the first time this new Gateway mall where the movie was shown. It's been a long time since I saw Cubao that beautiful and cozy.

Leaving the mall was another story! The movie was finished around 2am and when we went out to look for a nice place to eat, the old face of Cubao greeted us: the dark sidewalks of Aurora Blvd. with its usual cast of homeless people, street bums and rugby-sniffing hobos. Even in the company of three friends, I got scared that something bad would happen. One stab wound is more than enough for me, thank you very much!

Finally settled in for our after-midnight meal, we had the chance for mindless chitchat and open ended discussions about anything and everything. Well, Madonniacs that we are, her Madge always falls right front and center of the conversation. We just can't help it!

Well, suffice it to say, a fun night we sure had . . .

and Go I Gotta!

The EBUN Experience

The MADONNiAcs converged one more time!





In a spur-of-the-moment decision, Elg, Francis, A.J. and myself met for dinner (at the oddly-named resto EBUN) and the obligatory post-meal coffee conversation.

Despite (or maybe because of? he he) the absence of another member Victor, we had FUN! Just kidding Jana!

Before we started our dinner, Elg who's fresh from Puerto Galera was nice enough to give each of us a 'Brian Kinney' bracelet that he bought from the island.

The Kapampangan food was good but our dining conversations were interrupted by the countless cutie pies passing by in front of the resto plus a handful of disruptive kids (apparently, AJ has no maternal bone in his body). One guy though (definitely not a cutie, and definitely humongously fat) caught our attention with his nice slogan shirt CUTE & SLEAZY. Gotta have one like that!

Also had a chance to speak with AJ's buko pie. Interestingly, he was so much of a conversationalist (more like an interrogator!) that though he was asking questions not normally asked in first conversations, I found myself answering them! This guy is his own version of Oprah!

Going back to our dinner, our conversations were mostly on our plan to schedule a day when we can do a photoshoot of ourselves dressed up and posing very much like Madonna. With Madge's countless poses and imagery, we couldn't decide what pose and get-up we would do. And mind you, talking about our own poses was not enough, we had to do it right there on the dining table! Mindless of the fact that other people could see us! Elg even took some shots of our lame attempts to be Madonna! Unfortunately, not even George Lucas' special effects can do anything about the outcome, haha!

The talk eventually got to a higher level with another plan to have a Madonna Drag party! Just now, we are so looking forward to that moment! Heaven help us when it pushes through . . .



Spotlight, it is our time to shine!!!



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How Do You Measure A Year?

Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred moments so dear
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes

How do you measure -- measure a year?

In daylights -- In sunsets
In midnights -- In cups of coffee
In inches -- In miles
In laughter -- In strife

In -- Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure a year in the life?

How about love?

Measure in love

Seasons of love



How time flies and yet, how slow it goes by . . .
It seems just yesterday when we first realized that being a part of each other's life is a risk worth taking and it's a gamble that is paying off more abundantly as minutes pass by.

Love tried to welcome us and I'm glad we did not draw back . . .
doing so would be an enormous breach of destiny.


For you my Sunshine, my heart, my soul, my all . . .

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!


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Double Maddie Weekend

After a long time, I got to purchase not just one, but TWO Madonna biographies to add to my collection!



MADONNA by Andrew Morton


GODDESS:Inside Madonna by Barbara Victor

And they're practically steals as I paid so little considering they're both hardcovers. What a great weekend!

Maybe it's because of Mother's Day? Or our anniversary?

Whatever it is, as only a True Blue Madonniac may understand,
this is a fabulous DOUBLE MADDIE WEEKEND!!!


MADONNA

Promise To Try

Little boy don't you forget her face
Laughing away your tears
When she was the one who felt all the pain

Little boy never forget her eyes
Keep them alive inside
I promise to try -- it's not the same

Keep your head held high -- ride like the wind
Never look behind, life isn't fair
That's what she said, so I try not to care

Little boy don't run away so fast
I think you forgot to kiss -- kiss her goodbye

Will she see me cry when I stumble and fall
Does she hear my voice in the night when I call
Wipe away all your tears, it's gonna be all right

I fought to be so strong, I guess you knew
I was afraid you'd go away, too

Little boy you've got to forget the past
And learn to forgive me
I promise to try -- but it feels like a lie

Don't let memory play games with your mind
She's a faded smile frozen in time
I'm still hanging on -- but I'm doing it wrong
Can't kiss her goodbye -- but I promise to try



To you who I miss so dearly . . .
Whose embrace, the only thing I'll look forward to
when my time is near.

I'll see you whenever, you're in my heart forever!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!



Mothers

Love Of My Life

I am amazed when I look at you,
I see you smiling back at me,
It's like all my dreams come true.
I am afraid if I lost you,
I'd fall through the cracks and lose my track,
In this crazy, lonely world.

Sometimes it's so hard to believe,
When my nights can be so long,
And faith gave me the strength,
and kept me holding on.

You are the love of my life,
And I'm so glad you found me,
You are the love of my life,
Baby put your arms around me,
I guess this is how it feels,
When you finally find something real.
My angel in the night, you are my love...
The love of my life.

Now here you are,
With midnight closing in.
You take my hand as our shadows dance,
With moonlight on your skin.
I look in your eyes,
I'm lost inside your kiss.
I think if I'd never met you,
about all the things I'd missed.

Sometimes it's so hard to believe,
When a love can be so strong,
And faith gives me the strength,
and kept me going on.

You are the love of my life,
And I'm so glad you found me,
You are the love of my life,
Baby put your arms around me,
I guess this is how it feels,
When you finally find something real.
My angel in the night, you're my love...
The love of my life.

You are the love of my life,
And I'm so glad you found me,
You are the love of my life,
Baby put your arms around me,
I guess this is how it feels,
When you finally find something real.

My angel in the night, you are my love...

My angel in the night, you are my love...

The love of my life.



In a few days, it will be a year My Sunshine . . .


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